119 - Huh.

Why is it that when I watch How Clean is Your House, I get inspired to clean the house (even if it isn't really dirty)... yet when I watch You Are What You Eat, I always seem to be eating fatty foods? Strange. I usually eat farily healthily... a salad... or a baked potato, but with turkey bacon, reduced fat cream cheese, and caramelized onions... but today I was having pizza and wings and little tater tot-like things with jalapenos and cheese (a little of each, but somehow I don't think Gillian would approve). Now I feel bloated and icky. I need to get back into the habit of drinking water again... the trip got me off track and I've been drinking 2-3 sodas a day plus a hot chocolate at night instead of 1 soda a day and water the rest of the time. If I don't watch it I'm going to regain the 10 lbs that I lost... at the very least I'm not going to lose any more. And I haven't been exercising. It's not pretty and hilly here like it was in Scotland... and I've only gotten on my treadmill once. (and I'm not doing it for anyone else but myself, I'm tired of being overweight and I hope one day I'll find that energy everyone brags about)

Yesterday I saw an article that linked sleep deprivation, not only to obesity, but also to depression (which has often been linked to obesity). It's interesting how we can look at something and see it going in one direction, but not the other. Does obesity cause you to lose sleep, or does lack of sleep cause you to be obese? So anyway, I guess that's part of my problem... I end up getting about five hours sleep a night, so I'm fat and crazy. Instead of getting hooked on anti-depressants I should get myself some sleeping pills! Seriously though, I don't know what my problem is, but I can't fall asleep without the television on, and even though I do fall asleep fairly quickly, I also wake up several times a night. I could probably do a lot of things better if I slept. I dunno, I guess I also feel like when I'm sleeping, I'm missing out on things, and to quote an Aerosmith song that I don't actually like very much... I don't want to miss a thing. lol So I stay up late, and don't really make an effort to get to bed early.

So tonight I'm watching that new Sandra Bullock movie with some friends. It's one of those things that sounds great, so I agree to it, but then as time passes I usually talk myself out of. The high of the idea has passed. Well I'm not doing it this time. I forced myself to get dressed so that I have no excuse. My friend is even picking me so there's no effort required on my part. I get a ride up there, we sit in the dark and eat dinner while we watch the movie, and I don't have to impress anyone. How can I possibly say no to something so simple? We're going to the 4:20 showing, so I'll still be home in time to do some of the things I want to do around the house.

One of my friends is coming over tomorrow, maybe I can talk her into seeing New Moon. I was going to hold out for the dvd, but I'm getting caught up in the hype. Other people tell me they're going to see it and I feel a small measure of jealousy that they're doing it and I'm not. I loved the books (I won't argue her literary credentials, I just enjoyed them). The first movie was just alright... or so I thought... until I found myself craving it a second time... and a third. I think there's a spell on it or something. Anyway, I'll probably end up seeing it.